Monday, October 25, 2010

Hey Guys...

We received some sad news today. Our baby has stopped growing. We are grieving and our hearts are broken, but we know that our God is bigger. He knew the number of days that I would carry this sweet child and He was there with me today. He was with me. I felt Him when others cried with me on the phone. I felt Him when friends stepped up to watch my kids and bring dinners. I felt Him in moments of peace in between the tears.
Telling Kate and Miles was our big moment. We talked about what to say and how to use this opportunity to demonstrate our trust in our Lord. It was amazing. Miles, in his four year old wisdom, said, "I'm sorry that this baby won't be born, but I know the next one will." He then promptly kissed me and left the table. Kate said she was sad for us and sad for her and in her innate female-ness asked who would be it's parents in heaven. Miles came back for that one, "God will take care of it."
Kate and I sat down and talked a little more. I cried a bit and she cried a bit and asked if that is why I wasn't at her school today volunteering as normal. She said she cried when I didn't come. When I asked why, she said that she knew something was wrong with the baby. Why? "Because I knew you had a doctor visit today." My perceptive girl.
Thank you for all of your prayers and calls and texts today. What a comfort to be surrounded by such friends. Please pray for me on Wednesday morning as the procedure is done. Pray for peace and safety and for complete healing.
Psalm 23 has been in my head and heart this week. "For You are with me."
Love,
Mikele for all

21 comments:

Carrie said...

Love you all dearly. And the sweet hearts of your children.

Filleman Family said...

I'm so sorry Mikele. Praying for you and your family. Your trust in the Lord through this great trial is amazing and so evident. Praise God. Lots of love!!

The Beautiful Mess Aubrey Marie Photography said...

I am so sorry, Mikelle! I will be praying for you and your family. My heart is aching for yall.

Apologia said...

I'm sorry for your loss Mikele, I know exactly how you feel. I will praying for peace for your entire family....

Robyn said...

We love you and we ache for you! Wish so much that we were there with you. Praying!

Kristin said...

Reading this made me sad too. Hurting for you guys and praying.

The McPoland Family said...

I am so thankful that through this you are looking to the One and only who brings true healing to our hearts.
Praying for you, especially tomorrow...

feather said...

Tears came to my eyes reading Kate's response. I love you guys and will continue praying.

Kers said...

My heart jumped back to a day 7 years ago and the experience I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. Praying for you and Josh - that our great God would give you much comfort, peace and healing. Love, Kers

mini and brother said...

So sad for your family. We all hurt with you.I can't wait to be with you in a couple of days, we can cry together and laugh a littl too... I love you. Praying...

Amy said...

mikele - hope you don't mind me leaving a comment - i kind feel like your my vicarious friend thru katie :) just wanted you to know that I have been praying for you and your family as well... that He would provide just what you need in every moment. So thankful that K will be able to give you a hug soon :)

Katie and Bret said...

Also a vicarious friend, but through Robyn ... Know that you are not alone during this time and that you are loved deeply by our God. Praying that God's peace and comfort will sustain you during this time.

Jen said...

Love you, Friend.

Lulu said...

Hey Mikele, So sorry for your loss. You're in our prayers.

Jasmyn said...

Oh your sweet children's hearts. They know God's love because of how you and Josh have have trusted in Him. They see it in you both. Love for your family and prayers for you tomorrow and for the coming weeks.

Amy said...

I'm so sorry Mikele. You are such an encouragement to me as I read of your faith through this. Lots of love to you all and big hugs!

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Kristi said...

Oh, Mikele. Words can't express how sorry I am. You and your sweet family are in my prayers... praying for a peace that surpasses all understanding.

Terry said...

Oh Mikele isn't it amazing how God prepared the hearts of your children for the news. I hurt for you all and even as we were praying Destin asked are Miles and Kate ok? I know they see Jesus in you and Josh and that will help you all through this.
I love you

Astraea said...

Love you. Sorry I just saw this. xoxox

Rachel said...

Mikele, I am crying as I read this. I am so, so sorry. The loss of a child is heartbreaking but Jesus will guide you through this. The kids reactions are absolutely amazing and so loving. Praying for you.